Married and Expecting!!

•May 25, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Well…a lot has happened since the last time I blogged. So much i’m at a loss on even where to start. God blessed me with an amazing woman and soul mate to be my wife on 9/12/09. I could not be happier!! We went to Hawaii for two weeks  on our honeymoon and had an amazing time! I would love to go back at some point. I never imagined how complete I would feel in my heart until marrying Dominique.

Another amazing day was  March 21st. Thats the Sunday we found out Dominique was preggers. She is due on Dec 2nd… Being a dad is something I look forward to so much. I hope I am at least half the dad mine was.

So for now I’ll leave you with those two tid-bits…more to come later.

Stay blessed.


Over a year!!

•May 20, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Wow! it’s been over a year since I blogged! Yikes…lots has happened. Way Way up’s and Way Way down’s…i’ll elaborate more as time goes on and I get the blog bug back…maybe tonight!

Valentine’s Day

•February 19, 2009 • 3 Comments

So. This happened to be the best valentines day i have ever had.

Why Josh you ask?

We bought my wedding ring!!! Best gift I have ever recieved.

Jesus’ Prayer for belivers

•February 18, 2009 • 3 Comments

John 16 20-23
“My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.”

WoW! I think this passage is huge. I think God expresses His desire for us to be unified with Him, also I think He is saying that christians need to come to a point of “complete unity” to maximize our effectiveness in delivering His message.

There are so many denominations and clicks in every church. The devil really liked the whole divide and conquor idea. he split us up in to such small numbers trying to make us ineffective.

We need to look at what Christ said and no matter what our petty ideas about trvial religious mumbo jumbo are;

One fact remains. Christ died on a cross for all of us. I think He clearly says we need to be completely unified as belivers before we can ever accomplish what He has in store for us.

Have you on board at your local church? Are you unified with what God is doing there? Are you donating your time and resources?

Because don’t fool yourself. Being in “complete unity” in my opinion is not just agreeing with your pastor and fellow beliver.

“Oh yeah, Mike. I agree brother. Sure Sure reaching that people group is a great idea. Oh yeah i’m on board baby. Let me know how that goes”

Thats great lip service. Being completely unifie.

“You think that people group needs attention Mike? What can I do. I support Gods vision He has given you. Lets spread His word”

Next time you see a fellow beliver in need and don’t help when it is in your ability. Your not in “complete unity” with God.

He would have stopped to help.

Just a thought.

“A Morsel of Kindness”

•February 11, 2009 • Leave a Comment

1 John 3:17  Suppose someone has enough to live and sees a brother or sister in need, but does not help. Then God’s love is not living in that person.

“Leo Tolstoy, the great Russian writer, tells of the time he was walking down the street and passed a beggar. Tolstoy reached into his pocket to give the beggar some money, but his pocket was empty. Tolstoy turned to the man and said , “I’m sorry brother, but I have nothing to give.”

The beggar brightened and said -“You have given me more than I asked for- you have called me brother.”

To the loved, a word of affection is a morsel, but to the love-starved, a word of affection can be a feast!

When is the last time you went out of your way to say something nice to someone just because?!

God instructs us to love others like He loves us!

I’ll tell you what I fall short of that regularly. Even to the people I claim to “love” the most.

It’s my prayer and goal to notice those who are in need of a feast of affection a kind word can bring and to truly attempt to love everyone as Jesus loves me.


•February 10, 2009 • 8 Comments

If I could compare how I treat friendship to anything it would be a scene from the movie Tommy Boy. Tommy is describing his sales strategy using a roll as a prop. The roll winds up in a million crushed pieces on the floor.

I love people so stinkin much. I would do just about anything for someone, especially a friend. However, i don’t have many close friends although I truly desire some.

I have a bad habit of pushing people away via several different methods. However unintentional, it happens.

I’m very very hard on myself and I guess I just assume everyone else thinks the same things about me I do.

I’m learning that irritates people lol.

So i’m trying to be a better friend…the kind of friend I want.

As I continually take steps to put myself on the path God has for me I lose more and more friends who arn’t liking the path i’m taking.

That is a hard sacrafice for me but one I’m willing to make.

It’s taken so long to do because some of the only people I am close to are inching farther and farther away. Not that that is a good excuse…I’m trying to be faithful to the Father.

Pray for me as I pray for you on our Journey!


•February 6, 2009 • 3 Comments

Well wow. Today is going to be more about me venting on paper/screen. Random just sharing.

So I about had a panic attack last night. I guess I was overwhelmed with everything going on.
1. My dad battling a life threatening cancer
2. The wedding- Paying for it
3. Hearing last night Dominique only has 2 months left of her Job.
4. Contemplating all the bad senerios that could put us in.
5. The Dr. cutting my medication in an effort to get off of it (which he said wouldn’t be good if something stressful happens or is happening but i’m a stubborn ox so 🙂 i am doing it anyway).
6. Just feeling plain down and not turning to God with all this.

WHAMO At about 8 last night it all whapped me right in the kisser.

It’s hard for me to not internalize everything and let go and give it to God. I bottle everything up un-intentionally until i feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders.

It’s like my defense mechanism so I don’t get hurt. As I was growing up I got into the habit of doing that after my dad died with all the hurt that came into my life and am finding it a terribly hard thing to now overcome at 28.

So- it’s not about all the crappy stuff going on. I just don’t know how to let things go and give them to God from the place I put em. I need  to remember He is with me at every turn! Praise Him that He is faithfully there always even after 28 years of me remembering that fact after I have tried to carry the load myself.

On another tangent…at journey groups we were talking about loss and why i waited so long to get my liscense etc..the subject of the people I had lost from car accidents came up and people I lost  in general. It got me thinking the past few days.

God is freakin awesome.

I should be in a loony bin somewhere or a drug addict or both.

Don’t read this list and feel bad for me.

Read this list and say wow God had to have been walking with Josh since he was six becasue nothing else makes any sense.  I am sure people have been through worse but these circumstances combined with how emotional I am and just who I am…If He wasn’t with me I would be more of a basket case than I already am lol.

Then know that God is walking with you hand in hand in whatever circumstance your in.  Don’t hold things inside give them to Him because He will take them and take the burden from you! Don’t bottle it up!

Age six– Lose my father in a car accident/ Moved in with my grandparents (two of my closest friends)
Age nine– Lose my best friend Alex in a car accident
Age eleven– My cousin took his own life after moving out of our house
Age Thirteen– Lose my friend Billy Given in a house fire
Age fifteen– Lose my friend Jason Varrato in a car accident
Age Seventeen– Lose my Grandfather (one of my best friends) and My friend Omar Irvin to a drug shooting.
Age Twenty Three– Lose a previous girlfriend Erica Watson in a car accident
Age Twenty Seven– Lose my grandmother (One of my best friends) to cancer

Now I’m terrified with the situation my father is going through.

For me to be where I am today is a miracle straight from Heaven. Thank God that He loved me enough to walk me through each and every one of those circumstances to bring me where I am today. Thank Him that He is still helping me get where i need to be. I thank Him that He is still with me today teaching me and molding me.

I love you Jesus. If no one has told you today. Your the bomb!