Friendship
If I could compare how I treat friendship to anything it would be a scene from the movie Tommy Boy. Tommy is describing his sales strategy using a roll as a prop. The roll winds up in a million crushed pieces on the floor.
I love people so stinkin much. I would do just about anything for someone, especially a friend. However, i don’t have many close friends although I truly desire some.
I have a bad habit of pushing people away via several different methods. However unintentional, it happens.
I’m very very hard on myself and I guess I just assume everyone else thinks the same things about me I do.
I’m learning that irritates people lol.
So i’m trying to be a better friend…the kind of friend I want.
As I continually take steps to put myself on the path God has for me I lose more and more friends who arn’t liking the path i’m taking.
That is a hard sacrafice for me but one I’m willing to make.
It’s taken so long to do because some of the only people I am close to are inching farther and farther away. Not that that is a good excuse…I’m trying to be faithful to the Father.
Pray for me as I pray for you on our Journey!
Trust me when i say, at the end, you’ll look back and think to yourself…wow! I now have some of the most incredible friends ever! It’s amazing how God gives more than you could ever imagine! hang in there, you’ll see in the end!
Thats what I’m praying for! lol hoping I don’t ruin them!
I feel ya on that. You get “too close” and start to push away. Its that crazy barrier. Its funny cuz you feel that noone else feels the same way you do, but you’d be suprised. You definitely have some good friends. Its that stupid devil who gets in there and is like “Noone is close to you.Noones a good friend. You dont deserve it.” Thats when you beat him down with those new muscles you are building. Tear him up….lol.
Wow, Josh… I should just copy and paste like everything you said into my blog because I feel the same way so often! Like I would do anything for a friend, I just can’t believe sometimes how much I love them! But then I feel like I don’t have any friends who would do the same for me, or who value my friendship the way I value there’s. (Even though I know that’s not true; I do have a couple I know really love me like I love them.) So I wind up pushing them away so that I don’t become a burden to them. And then there are those who are going down the wrong path who don’t hang out with you because they find it convicting to be around you. I can really sympathize for you, because I have felt all of this, especially recently. You know you will be in my prayers!
Thanks Rob and Sarette!
Rob- You should see me in my muscle shirt!!
Sarette- I think God may be clearing the path so He sets the place as our best friend. He is jealous for us. When that happens I think the friendships will fall into place just fine. I’ll be praying for you too!!
I hear you Josh. I feel the same way so often. I don’t make time for people the way I should, and it overwhelms me when I do and yet it also does when I don’t. It’s easy for me to feel paralyzed about it and I overthink it a lot. I do believe that God does clear the path so to speak when we lose friends over our relationship with him. One of my biggest prayers for this year is that I would draw closer to the Godly women that God has put in my life.
Oh yeah, I know that is totally why. My prayer for myself lately has been that my relationship with God would be enough, that I wouldn’t feel any other needs (like the need to have more close friends) because I am close enough with Him that He meets all of them. If we’re close to God like we should be, our happiness will not be determined by other people, for He himself is our peace.
I on the other hand, might make and take too much time on friendships and sometimes with the wrong people that don’t have the same intentions as I do as in a friendship. (if that makes sense…) Friendships with Christ in the center, that are God sent and prayed for are truly the best to have. I too am praying that I will draw closer to the Godly women that are in my life.